We really appreciate your prayer right now. Abby's immune system (ANC) is ZERO. A normal ANC score for you and I is in the thousands. Below 800 is considered compromised.
The skin around her feeding tube is blistered and looks infected. It hurts a lot all the time, but the pain has become unbearable during dressing changes. The pain management team is giving her a short acting, but powerful pain medication during dressing changes. We will try it in a few minutes. I hope it works.
Abby has mucositis (canker-like sores) on her bottom, but not in her mouth, yet. They usually don't appear this early after her chemo (ARA-c), so we are praying and watching.
The chemo that causes the sores hasn't even peaked in her system yet. She received the last dose of it on Thursday and it usually takes 21-28 days after the last dose for her bone marrow to recover. Her body won't repair this damage until her bone marrow begins produce white blood cells again. What this means is that Abby is sick much earlier in the cycle than she normally is. Without God intervening, we are a long way from her bone marrow producing the white cells she desperately needs.
Abby is due to receive a dose of two chemos on Tuesday and then more chemo in a week. Abby's doctors are trying to decide whether to give her the chemo or not. Abby's cancer is aggressive so she needs the chemo, but the chemo weakens her and allows infection which is dangerous.
Abby was still able to laugh and play some, but also had moments when she just wanted me to carry her around and rub her back. A high point today was when Todd Block visited Abby. He brought her a bear from his kids and she was able to talk on the phone to her "boyfriend" Travis and his mom Amy. You guys are so sweet to Abby. Abby can't wait to visit the Blocks again.
Prayers for healing and comfort for Abby and stamina, wisdom and patience for me would be a great blessing to us.
Captain Abby the Pirate Patient (From Brent)
I was at the hospital today and Abby kind of scrunched up one eye (in pain? not sure), and I said to her "Are you being a pirate, Abby?"
"Yeah Daddy, I'm a pie-wut."
"Pirates go like this Abby: Aargghhh, matey!" as I winked one eye real hard as if I had an eye patch, and pulled my mouth over to one side using my best scruffy pirate voice.
Abby saw that, and did a PERFCT imitation and Michelle and I about laughed so hard we almost wet our pants. She kept doing it over and over, to everyone that came in the room. It was HYSTERICAL, made all the more funny because she had this kind of "drunk sailor" thing going because of all the morphine she was on. At one point she was falling asleep sitting up, and she had to point her finger every time she said it. I hope the full effect comes across in the video... it was priceless:

Poor Abby... she's not playing in this photo. If she shifts the wrong way,
she gets on to one of those canker sores on her bottom.
You don't have to read her mind to know how she feels.

But even in agonizing pain, doped up to the hilt, she still
has a smile for you, a kiss if you ask, and wants to be hugged.

Our Abby... we love her so much. We would be so happy for HER if
she went to be with Jesus, but WE would be so heartbroken to have to
be without her for a while until we joined her in heaven.
It's all I can do to write these posts sometimes, and edit these pictures and videos. Sometimes they just make me cry over and over. But we want to have these memories; we want Abby's spirit to lift yours, and our faith to inspire you to greater faith.
Otherwise we would just be suffering for suffering's sake. We rejoice that God makes all things work together for good, for His glory, and our eternal reward, because we love Him and diligently seek Him.
How can we pray for you, and help you diligently seek God?
~ Brent
79 comments:
She is beautiful. I hug my girls tighter everyday after and while I read your blog. God bless you and your family.
Hi Abby!
Wow! You make a GREAT pirate! We are all so lucky that your daddy shares these pictures and videos with us! Every day I come here to see if your mom or dad has updated, because I always like to know how you are doing. I wish more than anything that I could wave a magic wand and make you all better. It makes me sad to know that you are in pain, but you are such an inspiration to me! I see you smiling so beautifully in these pictures and you melt my heart and make me want to be a stronger person.
Abby, I pray for you every night and I will not stop.
Lots of love from Jen in CT!
Dear Lord Jesus,
Lead me to pray for Abby the words YOU long to hear & know that SHE needs. In Christ. Lisa
She's just so sweet...such a blessing from God. We will pray without ceasing.
I thought of you guys several times today while we were up at Cece's pre-op for tubes and adenoids. They did a finger prick for her CBCs and it would not stop bleeding at several points throughout the rest of the day. I was having a hard time keeping it together after the 4th or 5th time of trying to stop the bleeding, but was reminded of how much you all have endured with this trial. So instead of freaking, I reached to God for strength. Thanks for the reminder...
Oh Father, please touch this little girl. We ask for comfort for her and her precious family. We pray for the doctors to have supernatural wisdom. We don't really know exactly how to pray, but we ask for her healing, dear Lord. Please, dear Lord, hear our prayer.
in Jesus holy name,
Amen
Sending Abby love and prayers from Alabama!
I am new to your blog, but as a friend to someone who just lost her daughter to cancer, I will pray for little Abby.
She is so cute, being a pirate. I hope she feels better soon. Children are so resilient.
Your dear sweet Abby brought tears to my eyes...as I sit here with my own little fighter. My daughter had a bone marrow transplant in 2006 and last week we learned that she had relapsed and her leukemia had returned. She is currently on chemo and in about 6 weeks will have another transplant.
There are no words...but, know that I am praying for your dear daughter as I know that watching a little one struggle is so difficult.
May the Lord wrap His arms around you, your family and your Abby...
With Love,
Dana
jdcmikels@yahoo.com
Just know we are praying for Abby and all of you. I just read here and it makes me cry.
Keep the Faith...God surely has a plan.
Abby, You are the cutest pirate I have ever seen.
You are in Anabeli and Marvin's prayers each night.
I think about you and pray many times a day that God will help you.
You are such a strong girl.
Cindi
This post makes me laugh and cry. What a precious little girl you have, yet I am aching over the pain she's in. We have been lifting her up every night in prayers and hope that she comes through this round of chemo. Thank you for witnessing to all of us. Your testimony of faith in our Lord and Savior is truly inspirational.
You guys have the most amazing spirits of anyone I have ever met. I only pray that if I am ever in a similiar situation I could be as God focused as you guys are. I'm praying for you guys, God bless. And it seems selfish to ask for prayer for myself but if you could remember to, pray for my family-God is about to use us in an amazing way, I know, but it's hard because we've just battled legalism in our church and are leaving to seek God's will elsewhere
Thank you for that post. It was beautiful. I cried listening to you guys laugh at Abby--and cried thinking of all the physical pain she is experiencing. am praying for you all.
I will pray for your precious daughter. Reading about her difficult journey makes me weep. I so wish she will be well after all the chemo and can be a little girl again without worries and pain
Gotta love that little pirate, huh?! xxoo
PRAYING A LOT TONIGHT FOR YOUR FAMILY.COMFORT AND REST DEAR LORD FOR DEAR ABBY. BRING HEALING INTO HER LIFE AND CARRY HER THROUGH THIS CRISIS. LET HER LIVE THE LIFE THAT IS BEFITTING OUR DEAR PRINCESS. SHE WILL BE A SHINING EXAMPLE OF TRUE FAITH,LOVE AND HOPE TO THIS WORLD WE LIVE IN. GIVE HER DOCTORS THE KNOWLEDGE TO HELP HER WITH PAIN AND TO HEAL HER BODY. LOT'S OF HUGS AND KISSES TO YOU LITTLE CHILD OF GOD, ABBY!!!! AMEN
Your Abby is absolutely precious. Her smile just melts my heart. You are all in my prayers.
What a precious girl she is! Praying for comfort and strength tonight. God Bless you all!
She's not raising her finger, she's showing you her hook! What a beauty. I haven't been following your blog for long but I am so blessed by your love for Abby and while I cannot fully know what you are going through as her parents my Momma's heart hurts with you to a degree. Blessings on you.
Brent, I am so so sorry for the pain that watching Abby suffer must bring to you and Michelle. And although I know you will rejoice for her if she does go home to Jesus, I pray that she will be healed to continue on this earth touching people and drawing them closer to Christ. I know that while always a Christian, I have been drawn closer to God since I came across your blog. And throughout the day I stop to pray for Abby and your family as well as for others in my life. Knowing Abby and your family has stregthened my faith, reminded me daily to be thankful for all the blessings. Thank you for helping me along the journey.
This reminds me of what you said the other day (and I have shared with another blogger, referencing your site), that the worst that can happen is that we get to be with Jesus. I thank you for that concise statement to add to my arsenal.
awwww. :(
this is heartbreaking.
but abby is HILARIOUS in that video.
praying for that sweet little girl, that god's will will be done in her life, and yours.
much love from our family to yours.
Brent and Michelle:
My prayers are with you. Your family is definitely an inspiration to me and I am sure many. I am always amazed at how you still want to encourage others - even when your pain is at its peak. Watching your child be in so much pain must be the worst torture anyone could endure.
I pray for quick healing and for little pain for Abby.
Vonda
praying for God's will to be done and hoping that your little pirate gets over this rough spot soon!
God bless all of you! My heart aches for you!
Jennifer
She has amazing strength that only a child has. I know God has big plans for that precious girl I just feel it when I see her smile and I read your writings. You are going to come out of this storm and know that God carried you through. Im so heart broken as a mother and a mother who has lost a child for you to be faced with such a horrible task of seeing your beautiful child have to endure such pain. I know you would change places with her in a Second. Please be comforted tonight by our dear sweet Lord and Savior and as I sit here with tears pouring down my face know that we will continue to pray for her to be healed and spread the wonderful word of God and his grace! {{Hugs}} Thank you Sweet Lord Jesus for this precious baby girl who is amazing and wonderful, Thank you for her beautiful family, I lift them up to you dear Lord and ask you to comfort them and love them like I know you do. Amen....Blessings
Tell Abby that she has a lot of people that love her and are praying for her. You have a lot of people praying for y'all too.
Love in Christ, Lauryn -
Psalm 18:30
P.S. What is an address we can send cards for Abby to?
I am praying hard for your family. You all have such strength and your faith is awesome! We may not know His plan BUT our Heavenly Father knows all that will come! Peace and Love, Megan
It's heart breaking to see/hear of Abby being in so much pain (but I still long for the updates!!) I'm storming the gates of Heaven with prayer for precious Abby. That she makes it through this round of chemo, that the pain lessons to the degree of being manageable, and that both of you have the endurance it takes to make it through for her. Maybe I'm selfish, but I want to see Abby beat this, I want her to be pain free/ cancer free!
We are praying for Abby and for you. I am so sorry that she is having to endure so much. Her smile even in the midst of pain is inspiring. We all can learn so much from this sweet little girl. Oh, that we could all be like the little children.
Angel
My heart breaks with you. She is such a sweet little girl. Her ability to genuinely smile in the midst of it all is inspiring to me and a great reminder.
Michelle,
Praying that God will lift your arms..be your peace that passes all understanding..(((HUGS))) from Kentucky and lots and lots of prayers!!
Maria Jeffries
Hey Abby,
You make one great pirate! I am praying for you every day and I hope you fell better soon! Tell Travis we said hi! I would love to see what color you painted your fingernails! Have dad take a picture so we can see! Sleep tight!
CAn you email me an address to send a card my 3 year old would love to do this
tmgalletti@yahoo.com
Sorry I didnt leave an email to get an address to send a card...:)
LMAO she is sooooooooo funny!!
Love that girl!
hugs,Leslie
I agree with one of the other comments-reading your posts makes me hug my daughter tighter. I think learning through your family has made me a better mom. More patient,willing to laugh more, even when I don't feel like it.
Thank you for all you have taught our family.
We are praying right now for Abby at 8pm AK time.
Michelle Mann
Brent & Michelle,
I'm praying without ceasing for Abby. I have fallen in love time and time again with this precious little girl, and for that...I "Thank You" both! Without the two of you; we would have never met Abby. My mother in law lost her 6 month battle with AML Leukemia, and although it was a blessing for God to take her home and rid her of pain, it's still very hard! I read Abby's updates every single day (actually, numerous times each day) and I've cried many tears because I can really relate to what you all are experiencing. You all are one amazing family, and I'm so blessed to have met you. I feel like I've known you for a long time and if there's ever anything I can do for any of you, please let me know. I admire ALL of you and I will continue to pray without ceasing!
God Bless,
Paula, TX
Abby and your family are teaching us all the important life lessons. Abby is living God's plan for her life and for ours. He is using her to speak to others, and she speaks volumes! Thank you for sharing and for being so honest and real. Our family continues to pray faithfully because we know God can heal Abby. Blessings and love.
Oh, man, laughing...crying. I'm a MESS!
I cracked UP at you guys cackling at Pirate Abby. Her spirit is AMAZING. Her strength comes from your love for her, your mirroring of Christ's love to her, your ability to find joy in sorrow. Your dedication to find laughter everywhere.
I bawled at your pictures, your captions, your last two paragraphs. A parent's love for their child - sheesh!, it's like none other. Sometimes it's so huge it takes your breath away. Knocks you in the face, makes you weak and fragile. I know how much you and Michelle are hurting, and I hurt for you. It's moments like these where I can only imagine our Heavenly Father, sending His only son to die for our sins. The heartbreak of surrenduring a love so big.
It helps me, in times of extreme trial and uncertainty, to remember that as MUCH as we love our children, our Father loves them EVEN MORE. MORE. He loves them even more. He gives them to us for a moment - to love, to teach, to lead to Him, but, ultimately they are His. To hold eternally. It comforts me to know that HE is in charge. Holding them close. Loving them so much.
I vow to pray without ceasing for sweet Abby. And for you two - her rocks. I pray for a peace that surpasses your understanding, for wisdom for the doctors, for relief of pain for Abby and for HEALING, and that God's will be done in her amazing little life. I pray you get some sleep tonight, my friends.
Love in His name,
Kristy
Praying for you guys, and will continue to do so. We wish we could take away Abby's pain.
Lord, be with Abby tonight. Please grant her rest and healing for her body. Please help Abby and her family feel your unwaivering love. Give them wisdom and patience, peace and comfort, we pray.
"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, says my soul, therefore I will hope in him."
Lamentations 3:22-23
Just Precious
Kim
Sydney Australia
Praying...
Abby is just beautiful and some of the stories that you write about her are just adorable!
I pray for Abby's health and comfort daily and I pray that you will continue to feel the Lord holding you all in His mighty hands.
Thank you for sharing your sweet family with us.
She's precious! I'm praying!
Hi Abby!
We're sending positive vibes to you from Maine (we have LOTS of snow right now and it's cold, cold, cold). I have three occasional pirates and we'd love to send you a card. Could you please ask your Mom or Dad to email us to let us know how to get it to you? We'll keep wishing your sickness away. Be strong like a pirate!
Your fans,
Christie, Trevor, Cooper & Gracie
ccsalema@gmail.com
Praying constantly, not just here at home but at work also.
Continuing the prayers for sweet Abby and your entire family!!
Oh Lord, please hold this blessed child in Your hands! Please take away an ounce of pain so she can feel You there. Give strength to her if she is to stay here! Comfort her and each family member as the endure another day of so much pain! Father, we know You love to show up BIG and amaze us - we are NOT ask for You to prove Yourself - we believe in who You are - but we need You to shower Abby with care for her to stay here with us or to come be with You! Father, be the arms, hands, eyes and ears of all working on her care. Father, be the strength and love for every child at home! Praises to You for bringing so many together in Your name to pray for this child and family! Thank You for allowing us the opportunity to love You together! In Jesus' name we pray! Amen!
Love,
Jill
Hugs sweet Abby!
Oh, Abby, you are the CUTEST thing!!
Michelle and Brent, we are praying so hard for your family and for little Abby. We think about you constantly.
Leslie
Our prayers will be focused on your sweetie today and strength for you and Michelle. Please let us know where we can send Abby something!
skrobison AT sbcglobal DOT net
HUGE hugs from Houston,
Shannon
www.roomformorekiddos.com
oh sweet Abby!
You are an amazing family! I just started with you on this journey but you continue to put a smile on my face and joy in my heart by sharing your baby girl with me and the world. The pirate is PRICELESS! My boys went through a stage where we did that alot, sans morphine. She is a doll and such a blessing! Keep smiling! It's reassuring to know that you have entrusted this and everything to the Creator. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey...prayers are being said for Abby and family in Idaho!!
God Bless!
Amy Waters
Brent and Michelle,
I don't have the words, I can't imagine how your days and nights are, but i weep with you and your precious Abby. She is such a trooper; kids are so resilient. My heart aches with you and rejoices with you in her moments she smiles and lives her life.
Abby, you are so precious and beautiful. Love and lots of dancing your way sweetheart. God give you comfort. Your Mom and Dad are so wonderful and love you so much. Squeeze em tight.
Michelle and Brent-
Your love and faithfulness is amazing.
I can not tell you how much Abby is on my mind throughout the day and night. Sometimes, I find myself talking to Abby through the Lord.
Much love and prayers coming from NJ
This is my first visit to your blog. I will be adding Abby to our prayer list immediately. What a beautiful little girl! I will pray that God takes away her pain and gives her comfort. When my mother had chemo, she had mucositis sores in his mouth. I pray that doesn't happen to Abby. She seems like a really strong girl. You will all be in our prayers!!
I found you from Brit's blog and I'm praying, I've also shared your story with all of my family so they can pray too. What a sweet little girl you have.
thank you for sharing the laughs and the tears with us. abby has a tenacious spirit that has served her well in kicking cancer's butt!! praying for her, for you and for your extended sweet family. thank you for coninuing to minister through your situation and for continuing to point the way to Christ, no matter the circumstances.
love the pirate. abby, you'll have cancer walking the plank, just believe!!
what's a pirate's favorite cereal??
Lucky Chaaaaarms!!
favorite place to shop??
Taaaarrrrrget, K Maaaaaarrrrt, and WalMaaaaart, of course!!
Abby, continue to fight. you are the best and fiercest pirate i've ever seen!
arrrrrrrrrrgh!!
Michelle & Brent, Abby and you all are always in my heart and in my prayers. God knew what he was doing when He made her your daughter. Hugs to you all, DebbieT
Abby is truly a blessing, a gift from God. There's really no way to measure the number of hearts she's touching. I'm praying for all of you.
Lisa from AL
Hi Abby,
We love pirates around these parts and you are an awesome one! Thanks for sharing that with us. We are continuing to pray for you each day. We love you!
Heather, Dylan and Karsen Grace in NC
Just sitting here, with the Holy Sprit, crying out to our Father, for Abby and her family.
Praying for you sweet little pirate. We ADORE you. I promise if I could take every single ounce of your pain from you I would. Love you precious Abby. Praying for you too Brent and Michelle. ((HUGS)) Amy P.S I will show Travis this video when he gets home from school I know he will love it. :0)
I have tears running down my face as I read your blog today about your precious Abby. I know that I don't know your physically, but you guys are in my heart and my heart just aches for you guys as you watch your precious baby go through so much. I prasie God for your testimony as you give Praise to Him during this very difficult time. Thank you for showing us what God wants us to do during hard times. Angie
what a beautiful, strong girl. she may be in pain, but i can see that she knows Jesus is working hard to heal her, even though it takes time. my prayers are with your family and miss abby.
Praying for that sweet little Pirate! Your family is on my heart everyday and I pray for you all everyday. Abby-has such a strength beyond her years. I pray God continues to give her new mercies everyday.
LOVE the pirate!
We are sending more cards out today in the mail, and I will posting about this on my blog later today. I'll be linking it back to yours as well.
We are praying for you!
You truly are an amazing family. Christ is so present in your lives. Thank you for your transparency and thank you for sharing your precious Abby with us. We will continue to pray for all of you - especially dear Abby.
Our God is the God of miracles and NO order is too tall for Him. We will be praying for healing of those painful sores and praying for God to strengthen her body and her immune system as she continues her treatments.
We love you Abby! We love you so much!!!
God is using your beautiful girl in such a big way. Oh, how I pray that He perform a miracle in life.
Blessings,
Ohilda
tears with you... so sweet and so hard. what a precious child you have been given... her green sponge stick spurs a memeory of my grandpa in the hospital, he passed away one year ago today. praying.
I thank God so much for people like you who are able to express your faith so well during trials like you are experiencing. It's proof to me of God's will and God's love.
I pray daily for Abby and I keep your family in my daily prayers as well. My He wrap you in His loving embrace.
I didn't read through all the comments today - so someone else may have already pointed this out.
I don't think Abby is "pointing" when she's doing her imitation.
She is doing a pirate imitation and "hooking" her finger....in true Captain Hook form!!!
If you're a pirate, you've got to have a hook right?
She's beautiful and in my thoughts and prayers daily.
I didn't read through all the comments today - so someone else may have already pointed this out.
I don't think Abby is "pointing" when she's doing her imitation.
She is doing a pirate imitation and "hooking" her finger....in true Captain Hook form!!!
If you're a pirate, you've got to have a hook right?
She's beautiful and in my thoughts and prayers daily.
praying for your little girl...
OH Michelle and Brent,
I can feel her pain through those pictures. I hate to see her like that, and it makes me cry thinking you will ever have to live without her. She is so beautiful, she is a sweet spirit, and such a joy to watch! I love love love the pirate impression she did. You guys really have a joyful way of going about the whole cancer bit and all her pain she is in. Thank you for you ministry to me and to all those you touch through you blog. God is certainly at work in your family.
Praying right now for Abby...
christy
Thank you for sharing Abby with us. She is such an angel and her smile is infectious. She is touching more lives than most people do in a lifetime. Stay strong, sweet girl!
I'm new the blog, but I'm hoping for the best for Abby. She really has a great personality to be able to joke and smile like that.
I just got the chills thinking about what you are going through. I am sad for you guys. I will be praying for all of you every chance I get.
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